i miss him

i can't get this kid off my mind. just my luck valentines day is tomorrow. i'm just lonely...that's all it is. just because we love each other doesn't mean we were going to "make it".  he still has a lot of growing up to do. i stayed with him and tolrated because i was in love with the man i know he can be. i was just waiting for that man inside of hi to emerge...and for that year and half he only showed up when his life flashed before his eyes (don't ask), this was only a hand full of times. sitll with all of his faluts i always wanted to kiss him and make him feel better...my reforcement of kisses never seemed to add enough sunshine in his endless dayz of doom. i cotinue to ask myslef why i stayed with someone i knew subconsciencely would never be the guy i would marry even though i kenw the answer. pure and uttter fear of loneliness. you know there is a feeling you get when you meet people and you talk to them for a bit, you are supposed to pay attention to that vibe...