So...... i boogies down on the floor..sort of

sofor like the past couple of days i've been entertaining myself with this website called hulu. it's pretty cool especially if you have the time on your hands like i do. you get to watch old school movies and tv shows. oh yeah and today i signed up on the pen pal website... a place where only a hand full of people actually just want a pen pal. because we know that any website that wants to create a profile with your picture and wants you to talk about yourself and interest is really where people go in hopes of secretly hooking up with thier soul mates *sigh* lmao! damn i cant wait till school starts so i can feel even better than i do now. you know, since that kid kick me to the curb , and i still cant believe how people are like "wow your so happy" duh! he was a man full of self pity. nothing good could have come out of that i mean really...too bad it took me a year and a half to figure that out!!!

my friend took me out last night it was pretty awesome. he had a litter and a half water bottle full of belvedere vodka lol. we shared with the other girls (his friends) whom we met in the parking lot of his job. they brought the oj the girls bought and mixed it in another litter and half bottle. then he and i headed out to hollywood. we circled around the club for like half and hour and realized that he was going to have to pay the overpriced fee of 20 bucks on a sunday!!! can you believe it!!! just to park in a parking structure! ridiculous!!! highway robbery!!  so we get our spot he says were are going to drink this whole thing. i'm like are you serious...because i know i poured a more than half the bottle of vodka. i thought to myself who cares i'm not driving, i don't have work or school the next day. i win!! lol down that hatch!!! we stayed in car for a good fifteen to twenty passing the bottle back and fourth listening to the radio. i noticed there was a car next to us doing the same thing we were....gettin right.. before we get into the club to aviod thoes watered down over priced drinks. lol plus i knew i had to because it was an 18 + club ew... anyways so he and i are talking and i cant feel my words slurring and starting busting up laughing...and finish of the bottle. we get in the club and it's not even full yet. main room 80's music room (which later was the spot to be at for people who went all out on the theme) and to the right that new age alternative punk that i secretly love tee-hee. man i was dancing my ass off in that room lol. and to left of course there was a hip hop room were most of the people were. i love watching people who think they can really dance. i really shouldn't hate on them  they were probably all drunk anyways, right? 

it was there in the hip hop room where i really starting feeling the belvedere creep up on me i got hot and almost fell like a billion times lol good times.  he and i were on stage too he left and i got sandwiched by two latino kids oh my gosh that was funny...cause could not stay on beat for the life of me and there were just dancing around me like bees lol.  i had to flag him down to come get of the stage cause i was afraid to use the steps so he gave me a piggy back ride down i went to the closest couch sat on the arm and fell back in laughter. i was having another great moment in my crazy life and grateful for every moment of it.  that's when he pulled me up by my arms to go get some air. we only saw his friends every so often to dance and giggle at each other. by the way one black chick came later and she claimed that she knew told her with my drunk word you dont know me but she didn't hear me.lol. i can be bithcy when i'm drunk and she didn't even introduce me to her gentleman friend how sad and inscure? one of the others girls said she had marley but it was in her car...i thought to myself that would have been the icing on the cake...then i said it out loud as he and i left the club.

when i got home i ate again when and took an advil. didn't have a big hangover but i something like the runs man my tummy was hurtin lol. i was thinking this is different and this has never happened before; so i little later i ate some cereal, and one more trip to bathroom and all better. with the exception of the laziness all damn day lol but all i know is that damn i boogie to anything

p.s. in know way shape or form do i condone underage drinking or smoking of any kind nor do  i condone drink and driving 

p.s.s. lmfao after school special

i miss him

i can't get this kid off my mind. just my luck valentines day is tomorrow. i'm just lonely...that's all it is. just because we love each other doesn't mean we were going to "make it".  he still has a lot of growing up to do. i stayed with him and tolrated because i was in love with the man i know he can be. i was just waiting for that man inside of hi to emerge...and for that year and half he only showed up when his life flashed before his eyes (don't ask), this was only a hand full of times. sitll with all of his faluts i always wanted to kiss him and make him feel better...my reforcement of kisses never seemed to add enough sunshine in his endless dayz of doom. i cotinue to ask myslef why i stayed with someone i knew subconsciencely would never be the guy i would marry even though i kenw the answer. pure and uttter fear of loneliness. you know there is a feeling you get when you meet people and you talk to them for a bit, you are supposed to pay attention to that vibe...